The things we do for love
Why am i in so much pain lately? I really don't understand why it is so hard to be a better person when in fact i have tried(GOD knows how I've tried) to understand and realize that same situation months ago. It is all coming back again and it is killing me inside. I really can't help it. I have tried to brush it off my mind. I am not happy and definitely not at peace with myself. It is affecting my health, my relationship with my daughter, and my marriage. It is crushing my heart. I find it so difficult to breathe.
Why is it so difficult to let it go and just understand? is it because Im selfish, full of pride and insecure? is it because i have'nt heard what i wanted to hear for months now?is it because i do not have enough assurance from my hubby?or is it because i am so much relaxed that i intend to think so much and being paranoid?Or worse, i am just in so much drama.I really don't know! is it true that if you really believed what you wanted to believe,it really is difficult to understand and see the light.
My husband loves me so much especially our beloved daughter. And i love my husband so much, it is killing me. I can't imagine this family to fall apart. NOT in my wildest dream! I have asked guidance from the Lord to enlighten me on what really is going on. Sometimes, i hate this little voice inside my head telling me what i see and hear is true and the other little voice is telling me, im just being paranoid and full of shit! AArrrgghhh...i don't know what to think anymore! My friends and his friends are just laughing at us whenever we have big issues coming about our marriage. They do say we are the "IT" couple.
Hahay!I feel a lot better already. Sometimes, it is so much nicer to just write everything down than to say it. =)
If you have anything to advice, feel free to do so. i love comments, reactions or criticisms =)
Why is it so difficult to let it go and just understand? is it because Im selfish, full of pride and insecure? is it because i have'nt heard what i wanted to hear for months now?is it because i do not have enough assurance from my hubby?or is it because i am so much relaxed that i intend to think so much and being paranoid?Or worse, i am just in so much drama.I really don't know! is it true that if you really believed what you wanted to believe,it really is difficult to understand and see the light.
My husband loves me so much especially our beloved daughter. And i love my husband so much, it is killing me. I can't imagine this family to fall apart. NOT in my wildest dream! I have asked guidance from the Lord to enlighten me on what really is going on. Sometimes, i hate this little voice inside my head telling me what i see and hear is true and the other little voice is telling me, im just being paranoid and full of shit! AArrrgghhh...i don't know what to think anymore! My friends and his friends are just laughing at us whenever we have big issues coming about our marriage. They do say we are the "IT" couple.
Hahay!I feel a lot better already. Sometimes, it is so much nicer to just write everything down than to say it. =)
If you have anything to advice, feel free to do so. i love comments, reactions or criticisms =)
1 Comments:
HEYA KAT!!!! don't feel so bad!!! =) enjoy your life! ur very lucky u have jeff and kiana! and u know i got your back!
just holler if u want to talk to sum1. u know im always online, 24/7! hehe =)
u are very beautiful and strong! so don't worry about 'things' (whatever they may be!)
miss u and love u! =)
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