and now it has begun...

hahaha! I am so darn happy, excited,frustrated and whatever all at the same time.I am officially entering the so called "career path". =)

When i got my final marks this afternoon, i was depressed of what if i did not make it to graduation, but I did! such a relief.=) . A deep excitement occured to me inside. I can't help smiling while i was walking in school. I just have this big smile on my lips! It is officially over!!!Thank you LORD!

But, right now, Im still jobless.Don't know what i really want. Don't know if i can find a job.Don't know if i can make it in this new field.Don't know if i have the discipline to work it out. Lots of fears and anxieties. Arrgghh... but Im taking my time,not really in a rush but then again, I am kinda in a panic to get a job 'coz Im not getting any younger and I have lots of priorities and responsibilites. Not to mention my family, my lifestyle, his lifestyle...it gives me the shiver whenever i think about it.

Darn.I wish making money could be that easy. If i will only win the lottery.......nah, GOD would probably not let me win. I don't deserve it. What the heck am i talking about?! murag lotto naman ni atong gi storyaan dah! =)

Anyways, Im just plain glad that Im through with college. I just hope things will turn out the way i planned them to be.