Im back..

i dunno how long i've been gone from blogger.it seems time flies so fast,( really fast!) these days. As the days passed by, i have this intense fear of what the future will bring. I dunno why but every single day i find myself in a state of paranoia. But what is it Im afraid of? is it because Im graduating soon and a dilemma of finding a job will soon come?or is it because im afraid something will happen in the future that will probably kill me? or Im just afraid to experience pain and betrayal again? or am i experiencing what they call the "anxieties of life"? I am not certain but I am the type of person who keeps everything to myself and finds it difficult to express what is going on in my head and in my heart. This is what Jepjep and I always argue about. Its hard for me to communicate when we talk about matters of the heart and deep deep very deep situations. As far as i can remember, i was brought up to mind my own business and that practice turned into a habit and eventually turned into my characteristic. I guess i am a private person in my own little ways. =)